Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Here we go again...

I feel like a broken record. Uh. Yet, Here I am, again, deciding that maybe today is the day I should get going again. Lately I have just totally been lacking in motivation and inspiration. I really do feel like a broken record (hmmmm.... does that show my age or what since a whole generation doesn't even have a clue what a record is). And really, I have no excuse for this complete lack of discipline when it comes to exercise and nutrition lately. And there are only ten months between now and the biggest goal I have ever set for myself (Ironman Canada). So what gives? Why is it, I just can't seem to stay focused and driven? I mean, I know we all go through ups and downs, but this down just seems to be lasting forever, and I'm really not happy with that.

I know I make the choices. I get that. I also get that I have chosen to make several bad choices on the eating front lately. And even as I'm making them, I know they aren't the choice I really want to make, but it's the choice I do make. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

I feel like I'm trying to sabotage myself, when really, that's not the case, or maybe it is. Maybe I am so scared of failing, that I just sabotage enough steps along the way, then I'll have an easy out? Could that be it? I mean, I'm so excited to do Ironman next year. I watched Jeremy this year and was so incredibly proud of him!! And, it's been in the back of my mind for a few years now, so I know it's a goal, that needs to be achieved but wow, getting myself on track is proving to be much tougher than I imagined it might be. Last year I exercised every single day for ten months of the year. Now, I struggle to exercise ten days in a month. What gives??

But, I'm tired of the excuses, really tired of them. So once again, I start anew and hope that this is the time that really gets me going...Where do I start for now? Yeah, not even sure... let me go check... yeah, ain't that pretty, and long story, but can't get it to rotate... grrrrrr


  1. When I find it hard to stay disciplined, I walk through my training plan and the "rules" I've set myself and assess whether they're really realistic. Sometimes as professional amateurs, we are so hard on ourselves (don't eat X, run X times a week etc) and my experience is if you break things into little parts you get there quicker and more successfully Eg Week 1 might be about cutting a few things down in diet, week two will be one kind of exercise and then phase it in over time? Just a thought. Good luck.

  2. I think you need a better vision of yourself. You know what to do to train for Ironman because you signed up for it (I hope you do...), at any Ironman people come in ALL shapes, sizes and forms. They finish...sometimes fast! HOW do you envision yourself on August 26th?

    Ask yourself WHAT it is that you're NOT doing that prevents you from being/doing...answers will pop up!

    Decide on a plan that's realistic and then stick to it. Allow yourself ONLY ONE cheat day a week...that will prevent the guilt and the urges and look at your body changing and adapting. It IS simple....but you need a vision!

    I wish you LUCK and FUN!!!!

    Dominic (@ThinkingSapiens)

  3. Thank you both!! I also need to get a bit more disciplined with blogging too... some days just escape me though... the good news... starting on December 1st I have been going at least a mile every day... it's a start, and we shall begin to add more stuff in the weeks ahead... Thanks for the kind words and great ideas... I will do my best to get better at this whole fitness and eating right thing!!